Saved

Blossoms bleed in the churn of ocean winds.
Hearts die for want of flight.
Visions evaporate.
These are things you understand.

But one dawn a bird flew past your window
and by that simple act your heart opened like a flower.

Was it the faint summer-pink against the birth of blue?
Was it the distance?
Far enough that the bird took a long moment to pass?
Far enough to say that it was every bird in one bird?

Was it the wings of light flashing in the void?
Was it some cardinal link furnished by separation? 

Because in the open palm of arrested time,
you felt, between you, a fine-spun thread.
Not slack or you would have missed it.
Not tight or it might have snapped.
What was it?
A transcontextual connection?
A deep unknowing?
Love?
This thing that left you lounging in the throat of every lily
on all the porches of eternity.

That was far away and long ago.
Yet you still use the timber of that memory
to shore up your misshapen life.

Recorded in a haze of aspen saplings

Above the cliffs along the Jaun de Fuca strait are fragments of prairie,
and when I walk dutifully on the asphalt paths
beside the Meadow barley, Nodding onion and Nootka rose,
I nod to the spirits within,
in recognition
of a bone-deep bond
with the grasses, forbs and shrubs that still green my prairie blood,
where as a boy I ran,
arms outstretched through shoulder-high wild rye.
I was called into the silver tunnels of willow and buffaloberry,
knelt as one knighted at the Indigo Milk Caps,
sailed a scrap-lumber frigate held fast by spike and rope
through battalions of bullrush,
their velvet heads bursting up small clouds of down.
Coyotes held my head above sleep in windless nights
and tri-toned trains poured poems into sedge-lined skylines.
My birth is recorded in a haze of aspen saplings
on the crest of the Whitesand River,
where swallows of mercy inhabit a mud-chinked log house
that stands as a cenotaph
to the plowers and mothers and hard long hours,
where windrows of scrub brush burned far into winter,
where moldboard and share,
cut sod, bled summerfallow,
and bouts of drought and blankets of hail
gave way to a red barn, white chickens and bins of barley,
where a pine-trimmed house
saw the coming and parting of five children, all
dreaming of voyages beyond the bush-belted yard,
where now, through some trick of time, I walk
among the joyful spirits of goldenrod, blue stem and sagebrush,
listening to the drumming angels of the great plains,
aflame with a desire I can’t name,
and happy for it.


By God, for a minute there it suddenly all made sense!

…says a wizened monkish man looking up from a large open book. (From a New Yorker cartoon.)

Today over Christendom is the celebration of Pentecost, that is, the Church’s birthday. Now, hold in your mind, for a moment, your 2018 image of the Christian church.

Now, consider its birth: the story goes that the Holy Spirit blew in like a freight train of hot sparks and started fires of introspection, blazing through old divisions, igniting forgiveness, and generating great leaps of unimagined cultural amalgams, social connections.

It was, some said, the reversal of the Tower of Babel. It was, said others, the signal that God was no longer writing laws on stone but was writing the Law of Love on human hearts.

Categories were smashed, borders were overrun by raids of love. People understood each another, biases burned away, joy everywhere percolated and kindness rained down anointing foreheads. It was communion beyond denominations; it was community beyond religions. The Empire lowered its heel but something irresistible slipped out and spread.

Well, you could say it wore off. But then, every once in a while over these two millennia, despite monumental co-options in the service of politics and power and celebrity, something erupts and memories are refreshed, and the resolve to mimic the Spirit of Love takes over.

Small pockets of people head out to care for the poor, the strange, the foreign, the unappealing as well as the ailing earth. Essentially, that which the corporate church and steel-jaw state deny.

A favourite story, related to all this, is W.H. Auden’s brush with this “spirit.” (Later inspiring his brilliant poem, “A Summer Night.”)

“One fine summer night in June 1933 I was sitting on a lawn after dinner with three colleagues, two women and one man. We were talking casually about every day matters when, quite suddenly and unexpectedly, something happened. I felt myself invaded by a power which, though I consented to it, was irresistible and certainly not mine. For the first time in my life I knew exactly what it means to love one’s neighbor as oneself. . . . I felt their existence as themselves to be of infinite value and rejoiced in it.

I recalled with shame the many occasions on which I had been spiteful, snobbish, selfish, but the immediate joy was greater than the shame, for I knew that, so long as I was possessed by this spirit, it would be literally impossible for me deliberately to injure another human being. I also knew that the power would, of course, be withdrawn sooner or later and that, when it did, my greeds ands self-regard would return. . . . . The memory of the experience has not prevented me from making use of others, grossly and often, but it has made it much more difficult for me to deceive myself about what I am up to when I do.”

May the Church, on this day of Pentecost, remember its beginnings.

Mystery of mothers all over the world

It is still a mystery the way leaves all over the world jump out of sprigs under a single yellow sun who comes out to shine the coats of squirrels that run along a horizon of branches.

It is still a mystery the way the eye takes fields of blooming Common camus and makes them clear water lakes.

It is still a mystery, in front of all this beauty, that men cripple their minds plotting violence.

It is still a mystery the way our masks become our magnificent transparencies when we’re in the arms of a trusted community.

It is still a mystery the way knowing you are loved allows you to be happy when you’re all alone.

It is still a mystery the way mothers all over the world keep making new stories of boundless love as naturally as you prepare breakfast.