Evangelicals and Neo-evangelicals

Having exited evangelicalism, I can, I admit, find it easy to point and to ruminate in ill-considered ways, about a tradition to which I in fact owe much. I hope yesterday’s post was not ill-considered.

hatch3fixEvangelicals, old and new, as a rule far more than an exception, are generous and good-hearted and kind. If there is kindness in me it is largely because of my dear old German Baptist mother. If there is generosity in me, it is because of my late, low-key Evangelical-Mennonite-Baptist Russian father. And if I’m occasionally found riding a goodwill curve, it is because of the good-natured self-critique, church-critique, pretension-piercing ability of the quiet agile mind of my father and the gentle hands of my mother, as well as the mimetic spill-over from my siblings.

But I am left wondering what my father would have thought of my "exiting." Still, I’m confident that if he were alive today he would have embraced today’s neo-evangelical thrust. And so I could have at least had an interesting discussion with him. I would have loved the opportunity with fear and trembling.

Chick049Neo-evangelicals (using the term in its broadest sense, not merely post-fundamentalist) as a body, are proof that evangelicals are often enough their own best critics. The "Emergent Church" in all its amorphousness, the open-mindedness of "Red-letter" Christians, and "Progressive Evangelicals," are all responses to an evangelicalism whose shelf-life is up. The old Evangelicalism’s stress on a highly individualistic understanding of salvation, the absence of environmental concern, the stress on the soul to the lamentable determent of the social, are the larger issues that these newer strains are correcting.

For this, I thank God.

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My Crucifix

Yesterday at the Muttart conservatory
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…so that I may walk before God in the light of life. (Psalm 56)

I began wearing a crucifix over seven years ago. I was going to a Christian Missionary Alliance church at the time and was in fact an elder of the church. Of course I wore the crucifix under my shirt, next to my skin, where I could feel it, and no one else was the wiser.

It was a mild–and except for a few close friends and my wife–a discreet form of protest against the convictions that my church held. Convictions that for whatever reason, felt increasingly alien to me.

That a crucifix might be seen as a protest will seem odd to most people beyond the borders of Church things. But within the Evangelical house, in this case, the Alliance house built by A. B. Simpson, I knew it was a wedge in the door.

My "protest" was something that I didn’t plan. I had no map, no manifesto; there was no dress-code.

Stepping closer to the crack in the door, I saw a different landscape. A landscape of ragged convictions and a kaleidoscope of uncertainty. "Out there," because of the climate, or perhaps just because, people dressed differently.

Light through leaf
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The dislodged door, with the strange light flowing in, proved impossible to ignore. And so, still within the "safety" of my Christian and Missionary closet I began trying on different clothes. I started slow, an item at a time, looking in the mirror, wondering where these new clothes would take me. And in moments of secret panic, I wondered if I could really leave house and home. But after squeezing through the door and walking around outside for stretches, I knew that there was no turning back. I knew that for me, if I stayed, the bunching and chaffing of my old wardrobe would finally leave me gangrenous.

There was no one thing, no item that I could point to and tell myself if I replaced this, then I could still put my heart into this particular cast of Christianity–or more specifically, and for lack of a better term–the Evangelical-church-enterprise. Half-consciously I had been trying this for years, with declining satisfaction. It became increasingly obvious that my wardrobe of convictions needed changing, needed something like a new base-colour. Under the strange light, it was like I had been "draped" and now everything I wore looked off, or looked dull.

Or, I suppose, it was like losing everything in a fire. While shopping for new clothes I gape at the dizzying possibilities of what I could end up hanging in my bedroom, and I wonder how it was, that I used to habitually bring home grey sweats.

muttartbarsI can’t say exactly when all this started but I think my wearing a crucifix both symbolized and energized the inevitability of journeying beyond the creedal door of certainty. This is not to say that I’m unaware of my indebtedness to the tradition I’m leaving behind. In more ways than I know, it has made me the better part of who I am. What’s more, it gave me some of the resources with which to make my exit. But the exit was unavoidable and necessary.

And now, there’s no end in sight. I know this because a year after I bought my first crucifix, because of my interest in St. Benedict and monastic spirituality, a close friend gave me a Benedictine crucifix. A couple years later the miniature Jesus fell off. I had a strong impulse to glue him back on immediately. But I waited. Some of this was no doubt procrastination, but more of my waiting was to see just how it felt without him.

There’s no way that slight, silvery, two-inch Jesus should have made a difference, but it felt noticeably lighter.

Well, now, he’s disappeared all together. And I wouldn’t know where to look to find him. Thing is, now "he’s" showing up all over the place, and more often. Who knows where it will end.

Orchid Cross
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Anna Nicole Smith

no-photo-availableI’m waiting for someone to say something reasonably wise about Anna Nicole Smith’s life and death. All there is, from CNN to SFGate to the Sun that my neighbour in Starbucks was reading this morning–"Brassy Sexpot dies in Florida hotel"–is that during her life she was, "famous for being famous." And in her death… "the vultures will party on her grave."

Perhaps her "official website" is her best response to us all.

What else is there to say about someone who consciously sought society’s glittering frayed edges, who gave herself to any voyeur that owned a camera or a column, and yet was seemingly unconscious to our culture’s cannibalistic ways?

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Strength of Love in 5000 Year Hug

I learned of this 5000 year old embrace on Idle Ramblings (an eclectic archeological blog) a couple of days ago; and yesterday it appeared on the front page of our Edmonton Journal. In fact it has made news around the world.

There’s a reason. It’s like anthropologist Luca Bondioli said, the find has "more of an emotional than a scientific value." And when it comes to human emotion we are all involved.

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Buried 5,000 to 6,000 years ago, during the late Neolithic period, the prehistoric pair are believed to have been a man and a woman and are thought to have died young, because their teeth were found intact, said Elena Menotti, the archeologist who led the dig. "As far as we know, it’s unique," Menotti said in an interview. "Double burials from the Neolithic are unheard of, and these are even hugging.

"It was a very emotional discovery," she said. "From thousands of years ago we feel the strength of this love. Yes, we must call it love."

As the poets tell us, "Love is all you need."

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