Conventional Grace

A couple of blind men, siting on the curb, hoping to be heard by someone rumored to be an itinerant healer, yelled, waved, flailed, and in spite of being told to shut up, brayed all the more, shouted for mercy. And as the story goes: “Moved with compassion, Jesus touched their eyes. Immediately they regained their sight and followed him.”

Our moments of faith and grace don’t come to us in these biblical ways. Not mine anyway. I’ve seen no burning bushes, witnessed no angels buzzing. Nor have I seen healing in New Testament ways. I’ve not seen crippled people leaping out of their warped frames, or eyes blind from birth suddenly open.

But like you, I have seen “conventional miracles,” or graces. This year, in two operations separated by a couple months, my mother had cataracts removed from both her eyes. In her generation’s way of stoically managing things, she had lived with them for too long. Almost becoming accustomed to the dulling of her sight. But the pain and growing shadows finally moved her to seek help. That and some persistent nudging from her children.

There was no yelling or shouting for healing, unless my mother did this inwardly–something I’ve personally turned into an art form. But knowing her, no, I don’t think so. But I know she would have prayed before her operation, as we all did.

fountain640 After the first operation my sister-in-law chauffeured mother to her check-up. Beth said, “She almost had a bounce in her step!” (Which I think is great for a somewhat arthritic 85 year old.) “She has no pain at all, and was quick to relate to me that when she looks with her right eye closed things appear kind of yellow. But when she closes the left eye and looks only with the right eye–the one that was operated on–things look much brighter, no yellow tinge, things are not cloudy, edges are sharper and colours are much more natural. She rather enjoyed looking at the scenery en route.”

Conventional grace is still grace.

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Mortality Occupied

Poets always offer perspective.

Maybe it’s the autumn leaves but this ancient Hebrew stanza laid me out again.

All flesh is like grass
and all its glory like the flower of grass.
The grass withers,
and the flower falls.

There is comfort in mortality in a way there isn’t in the promise of security. Mortality, properly occupied, may be our freedom; and the pursuit of long-life, security, and semi-permanence, a manacle.

Red Leaves Through a Window (sm) Might mortality-occupied change our lives? Could it compel us to follow a lusher, grander, path? Even at our peril, even if the promise of inner-richness was mixed with great risk, which it always is, wouldn’t we take the new road revealed by mortality-occupied?

We can be held hostage by the initials we carve in hardwood. While our in-the-mean-time, which it the true stuff of our day, is squandered by stock-index ghouls and false wages and familial guilt.

In mortality-resisted, our true project, which is our awake and connected soul in relationship, is traded for a semi-conscious glutinous-soul, dying for want of a source.

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Blackwater’s Christian Roots

While initially heartened by Iraq’s cancellation of Blackwater’s licence to do “business” in Iraq–the revocation coming because of the killing of 11 Iraqi civilians in Baghdad–the on-second-thought came quick enough. Second thought: Since when does Iraq tell an American firm what to do?

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And sure enough, today, Iraq appears to be backing down from it’s resolve to withdraw Blackwater’s “business” the license.

My interest in Blackwater however is over its founder. You see, Blackwater was founded by Erik Prince, a former Navy SEAL, and a multi-millionaire right-wing fundamentalist Christian from a powerful Michigan Republican family. His wealth came from his father, Edgar Prince, who headed Prince Automotive, an auto parts and machinery manufacturer.

blackwaterheli Prince shares Bush’s Christian views and not surprisingly is a major Republican contributor. His social circle includes Gary Bauer, who, with help from his father, started the Family Research Council.

Whether Blackwater is the most powerful mercenary army in the world, with a blank cheque from the Bush administration, as Jeremy Scahill claims in his book, or whether it is just a private security firm operating in a war zone, and other zones–like protecting corporate holdings during the New Orleans flood–one thing is clear; it has become the most successful security organization, and the richest, in the history of security firms (a.k.a. mercenary armies).

And why? Well, probably because Blackwater does have something like a blank cheque from the Bush administration.

My Niece’s Wedding

My wife Deb and I just got back from performing my niece’s wedding. (James and Ida Marie) I have a brave niece. We’d never done anything like this before,

I’ve included a few pictures. We originally went for the Jezebel / Desert Father combo, while the mother’s, wheeling in Ida Marie and James’ adorable daughter, went for an Ozark theme…

The following is/was my “homily.” Fortunately Deb’s message was bedrock stuff.

I had a marriage thought, well, it’s not my thought, it’s Robert Louis Stevenson’s. To my mind, it’s a near perfect description of the state of marriage. He said: “All marriages are mended garments.”

It’s true, while the whole ensemble starts out relatively pristine, only too soon, there’s occasion for a bit of mending.

debandme ida's wedding But of course, even mended garments can look exquisite.

Sometimes a marriage can look so beautiful, nothing needed, no spangles or sequins to dress it up; it’s just this fine silky thing. And it feels wonderful against the skin and looks as radiant as a starburst. And you just pray someone drops by to see you in it, perhaps especially in-laws.

Other times, you look down and it’s like you’ve got on these gray sweats with embarrassingly large holes, past bagging up and taking to Goodwill. You wouldn’t dream about going out, and all you want to do is lock the doors and watch TV.

weddingmothers Most often however, marriages are somewhere in between…like a pair of comfortable blue jeans, or a sweet periwinkle sweater, or a forest green house coat you just love to lounge in, or maybe a standout shirt you picked up at Winners that you wash over and over again, without too much fading, and hardly any shrinkage.

Inevitably however, there will be a little wear, some fraying. Sometimes things wear through at the back, where you can’t see, and you need a friend to point it out to you.

 Whatever the case, you’ll need some patches. You’ll want to use good material. Something pre-shrunk and tested that won’t come apart after the wash. (I think Jesus made this point once.)

idajameskissBut when it comes to the mending, stitching is key. Seems to me, stretching the metaphor, love is in the stitches.

A good love-stitch brings us back in contact with each other. And there’s nothing better or more important than a great double-stitch at the stress-points. Because it’s precisely here, in the stress points, where we learn love. Learn to bear things, believe, and hope all things, for the sake of each other, and curiously enough, the sake of ourselves.

idajamescandle And when things are looking good, dance in that dress, sashay in that suit.

And when things are looking good, don’t be tempted to pick at invisible lint. And don’t let anyone else pick at invisible lint. Just recline, relax and enjoy, even accessorize for fun.

And remember to remember, just how you feel in those clothes, how beautiful a cared for marriage can look.

In the end, a good marriage garment is part memory-cloth. So you can always find your way back to the love that brought you together, and then, once again, move toward the love that rejoices in truth, is patient, is kind and enduring.