Mercy mixed in

By a bus stop on Saanich road we set up our furniture. A sofa, arm chairs, a pole lamp–humped through the sagging front door of our listing bungalow, carried across the street and placed on the sidewalk under a ‘no parking’ sign. And there we sat drinking and smoking for half a day until the police came and watched us drag everything back across the asphalt past the stumpy caraganas releasing it all onto an overgrown front yard. In those days we stole time without trying or noticing. In those days time went nova and nothing escaped notice; nothing meinchair was lost or wasted or in need of redemption. We marked our lives under the shade of maples on boulevards and measured them by park boundaries and benches and cracks in concrete and tangles of driftwood. And we were never far from being in love. And when love ran out we fell in love with the idea of being in love. We were of no fixed address but never displaced. There was always space, place, and time. No one suffered and died under the weight of headlines. When the world grew large and unmanageable we sought out the islands. When the islands shrank we rowed out on books. When books sailed us too near the falls above the jagged rocks we berthed and hiked back to the buskers on Government street. Because on Government street mixed among the pretentious pillars breathed the mercy of their music. And beneath the egregious steeples lived the mercy of artists playing out scenes on cinder. And drifting above the sleeping poets, the laughter of office workers at lunch. All this we counted on, as I count on still, that mercy will always mix in, always recline within steel’s speed, always park itself under ‘no parking’ signs and twine its tendrils up and over the hard surfaces of life.

Be with those who help your being

Yesterday I again came upon the thirteenth century Sufi, Jalal al-Din Rumi. My encounter with him was through the book "The Islamist"–which is Ed Husain's story of his early fascination and adoption of Islamic fundamentalism, his subsequent disillusionment, and finally his journey away from indoctrination.

During his move away from that extremist form of Islam he began reading Sufi literature and while visiting Turkey he "met" Rumi.

His story reminded me of this particular poem of Rumi's. Perhaps it can act as a kind of launch pad into the New Year. If and when it fits, consider it your Grow Mercy New Year's blessing.

Be with those who help your being  1969Fred&Shellyhavingahug

Be with those who help your being.
Don’t sit with indifferent people, whose breath
comes cold out of their mouths.
Not these visible forms, your work is deeper.
A chunk of dirt thrown in the air breaks to pieces.
If you don’t try to fly,
and so break yourself apart,
you will be broken open by death,
when it’s too late for all you could become.
Leaves get yellow. The tree puts out fresh roots
and makes them green.
Why are you so content with a love that turns you yellow?

JustinTerylMarkAmy1990

Happy New Year!

Hope and happiness of a new year

We turn towards the hope of a new year and no matter how disheartened we are from past experiences we hope again. We adjust the sails to try and catch a new breeze or to try and get a better angle on a familiar wind.

We are all acquainted with the doldrums, that belt of stagnant air between the hemispheric trade winds. We also remember meeting confusion and anger when caught in cyclones. What we desire and what is right to desire is that zephyr-like wind that both refreshes and moves us deep into our givenness.

Puget Sound That said, here’s some Grow Mercy sail adjustments for 2008: Just a preliminary qualifier–You’ll recognize that I have yet to deliver myself from a certain romanticism, nevertheless, don’t dismiss the notion that we are free only when doing what the deepest self likes, even though, as D.H. Lawrence has said somewhere, “Knowing what the deepest self likes, ah, that takes some diving.”

So, to the the diving and to the jibing: Go deep. Do the work. Let go of the rest. Look to your faith, look to your passion, and to your strength. If there is such a thing as a gift, try to use it up, even though, if it’s a true gift, it will never be exhausted. Don’t hold anything back. Let it take you, let your gift lead you. It knows the way.

After all, we are after the freedom that brings happiness. Not to desire happiness out of a bend belief that it’s a fickle and inferior human state is morbid. In any case, secretly at least, we all desire happiness as part of everything we do.

And happiness is what I desire for my children and their children. Happiness, never as task master, but ever always as companion. Like having the best kind of flower-child for a friend.

Happy New Year!

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January Flower

Anything I’ve ever said about experiencing the truth through narrative, or returning to story so as to glory in the ordinary, or the search for a second naiveté, or the quest for wonder and beauty, can be placed in a small footnote under Patrick Kavanagh’s  poetry:

Advent

We have tested and tasted too much, lover-
Through a chink too wide there comes in no wonder.
But here in the Advent-darkened room
Where the dry black bread and the sugarless tea
Of penance will charm back the luxury
Of a child’s soul, we’ll return to Doom
The knowledge we stole but could not use.

And the newness that was in every stale thing
When we looked at it as children: the spirit-shocking
Wonder in a black slanting Ulster hill
Or the prophetic astonishment in the tedious talking
Of an old fool will awake for us and bring
You and me to the yard gate to watch the whins
And the bog-holes, cart-tracks, old stables where Time begins.

O after Christmas we’ll have no need to go searching
For the difference that sets an old phrase burning-
We’ll hear it in the whispered argument of a churning
Or in the streets where the village boys are lurching.
And we’ll hear it among decent men too
Who barrow dung in gardens under trees,
Wherever life pours ordinary plenty.
Won’t we be rich, my love and I, and
God we shall not ask for reason’s payment,
The why of heart-breaking strangeness in dreeping hedges
Nor analyse God’s breath in common statement.
We have thrown into the dust-bin the clay-minted wages
Of pleasure, knowledge and the conscious hour-
And Christ comes with a January flower.

Icicles at dad's cabin