Breath out

There was a moment in this morning’s meditation–while breathing out–when all the niggling doubts, confined frustrations, genuine worries, regrets, and all the everyday things to do–and things forever left undone, were released.

I rarely have these moments. Probably because my meditation is sporadic and shallow. But every once in a while, a moment, be it ever so brief, caught in that ethereal dream catcher, stops, turns in on itself and sweeps a body clean. Almost like the exhale of John Coffey in The Green Mile. But without the black flies and fatigue.

mybackonbridgeIt does give one renewed hope, not only in the practice of meditation, or centering prayer, but hope that the power of everyday anxiety is not fixed, or indeed, always real. And hope, that in small moments, life still breaks in and reverses entropy and age. That once in awhile, the inexorable movement of energy to mass in mind and body, is stalled…and that a soul can be unencumbered.

A hike along Mission Creek

A lone bat decides on a day time hunt. We catch the flash of his dark wings as he flies, helter-skelter, like a leaf in a breeze. He’s in pursuit of insects that flit and weave above the deep pool in Mission creek.

The pool, carved out by centuries of silt-laden water, forced into an endless eddy by a rock the size of a house, is conspicuously deep and cool and attractive to rainbow trout–also in search of water borne insects. And the creek has its share. You can see them glint like fireflies when the sun angles its light through the trees and onto the dark water.

Mission creek canyonMission creek–most likely named after the missionary endeavour at Lake Okanagan–is a rocky stream of iron-rich water that runs around boulders, sand and scree, through a canyon with 200 foot sides, and past hoodoos and small caves that hide brown bats. And like all creeks worth their salt, its water music mesmerizes. And like all humans and we are drawn to her ripple and rhythm.

The trail we take skirts the Mission Creek 8 Indian Reserve. The trek down to the creek is steep and must be taken with short strides. Walking stick or not, we step and slide. Slide more than step. When the trail levels out we come across bear scat–of which there is plenty. Old and new and full of chokecherry pits. On a broad trail in the valley, away from the dry cracked earth we spy deer. A doe and a fawn. The fawn’s spots are still prominent. Merrisa and Sue

As we move past the trees and underbrush and onto the creek banks we see the rock horn. It’s independence from the cliff is pronounced as it seemingly lifts itself higher than the canyon walls. Silent and imposing, it’s a tower that confounds our finding names for it. Out of its side, just below the peak, grows a defiant pine tree. It somehow finds the requisite nutrients for life, even as its own roots help grind rock into soil. It’s nurtured, we imagine, by occasional morning mists and traces of rainfall trapped in crevices. But there is no reason for the tree.

We cross the creek. Six of us. Our friends, Terry and Sue, and their two children, Robby and Marissa. The calf-deep water stings us cold. And there are the rocks. Slick and covered by a thin film of algae. On the crossing back, Marissa slips and and crashes her right knee and dips her side in the cold white water.

Beach by the boulder Having hiked both sides and upper banks of Mission creek we settle back on the sand opposite the house-boulder. It’s here we spot the bat and watch it hunt–briefly. The daytime chase is a fateful decision. Silent as drifting pollen, a sparrow hawk picks him out of midair above the pool–just a few yards from where we sit. It’s the act of a practiced raptor. Natural and remorseless, she flies with the bat in her talons, into the shadows of the thick pines.

Only moments later a young black bear appears on the far ledge across the creek. A quick survey and then a crash through the bush and gone. No time to retrieve a camera.

We rest…our conversation is spaced. Later, we climb the steep trail back out of Mission creek. It takes a while to return to being human.

Wee Holiday

Just on a wee "last minute" holiday before the fall drops upon me.

Currently sipping an Americano in the Espresso bar, upstairs in Gabriola Island’s Artworks.

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Much beauty and slowness here. The island offers abalone, breakfast eggs from free range chickens, and hugs from the waitress at Suzi’s.

You get to feeling like Baby Lucy. (First born of my friend Janelle and her husband Dave)

Lucy has such style and taste.

Baby Lucy (Janelle) 

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No fixed schedule

Two women of indeterminate age sit facing each other, alternatively lifting banana bread and porcelain cups filled with coffee to their mouths–all the while chatting. They talk of landlords, brothers, and pets. They are well known here at the S’Cup and when the head barista comes by the taller woman notices her glasses No fixed scheduleand comments on the change which turns into a short conversation about elementary school and eyesight. When the barista leaves the ladies settle back into the comfortable chitchat of people with no fixed schedule.

Beside them, in one of the comfortable chairs, a woman in her early thirties chokes back a muffin. In a moment she receives a call to which she responds, in obvious anger–"I’m not angry…if you have anything to say to me leave a message"–and hangs up. She seethes, sighs, stands and walks out the glass doors.

In the mean time a silver-haired businessman makes it his job to supervise window-washers and advises one of the servers to reprimand the two young workers for leaving phantom streaks on the windows. She nods gravely as the man makes the world work better and agrees to have have words with them–and then, takes appropriate action and promptly forgets the exchange when the man leaves.

When my turn comes to leave I pass a man on the sidewalk who, like Seymour Krim, is barely able to contain the riot in his soul. His hatred for me, inexplicable but palpable, has already dealt me a blow–even as his eyes show me that I’m not worth the momentary pleasure it would give him to have his fist fly into in my teeth. I walk by him reminded that we live in a dangerous world.

I’ve been shown also that we live in a petty world–live in an angry and lonely and misconceived nether-world–but that we live as well, in an engagingly glorious world. I have, at times, been a conspicuous part of each of these worlds–and will be again. But it is my lucky circumstance that I have a preference for the one with no fixed schedule. Time enough to notice an-other, and desire the exchange of pleasant words.

And to that end, it is my fortunate circumstance, perhaps even a luxury, that I understand that it is as much a crime to fail to accept the givenness of my life, as it is to fail to try and change some of those givens.